Saturday, September 24, 2011

Part 2.

So this entry is the part 2 for my last post. Actually I've been thinking on how people handle their past, the bad one per say. Many successful stories that we seen in the present does not necessarily starts good. Some of them are bad, some are real good since starts and if that's the case its good for them.

I remember reading a story from Mastika 2,3 years back about a successful Malay entrepreneur in Malaysia printing tickets for lottery or sports toto in his early year of his business. I repeat, a Malay and definitely a Muslim if its the case in Malaysia. So yeah, its bad right? Contributing for haram sources of income. I don't want to comment on this because this is not the real reason I'm writing this. What I know now he mentioned that he no longer print ticket for any gambling company no more. Would you forgive him of his past? If you were to ask me, my answer is I don't know. Its not me who do the judgement, its the God Almighty.

And what about the case of a politician. Or I can say politicians. Lot of history that people managed to dig deeper into their past. Its kinda hard I guess being a politician. Look at Anwar, Najib, Hishammuddin, Mat Sabu, and many other politicians. Though some of them have really changed now, but people still tend to look at the past. Its human nature. Even when making prediction, human tend to look at the past. I'm not saying its wrong to dig the past and blame them. Yes, we can do some background check but then there are limits to where you can use against them. If they were admitting their past and done well in present day, why would you wanna dig their past and tell the whole world they are sluts or whatsoever.

Okay, my point is. Its not wrong to look of our mistakes. Admit our wrongdoing, change for better, ignore what others say. Who are they to judge us. As long as u change for the good.

Okay, move on. Change for better. Sorry for writing this crap, I don't know how to arrange words. This topic is kinda confusing actually. Subjective.


Monday, September 19, 2011

The past are still the past.

People said, past will never be changed but the future might be. Back to the Future, Terminator, Meet the Robinsons. Those are only dreams that are not yet achieved or perhaps cannot be true. Generally speaking, I don't hate past, I just regret certain stupid things that I've done back then. Up till now I'm still shadowed by the mistakes that I've done. Shit happens, but some shits are just terrible. Damn terrible.

The least that I can do is becoming a better person. Ask forgiveness. People learn from mistakes. I do the same too. Now, I think I've becoming an insecure person. Some might think its not a good move. But for the time being I think that's the best I can do to avoid it from happening again. If time machine does exist, I bet I'm not the only one who would want to go back and fix the situations. There are tons of people that does feel the same.

Serious shit kept thinking about it now. Not joking. Whoever I've done wrong or mistakes, I beg your forgiveness. Truly.

"The past cannot be changed, but the future has possibilities."

Saturday, September 10, 2011


Lebih kurang dua hari lepas, masa aku tengah tunggu gap for another class, aku ternampak a guy who looks a bit retard. Seriously, he does look a bit retard. Mata macam juling sikit, lepas tu position mulut cm senget sikit. It was raining that day. Masa aku lalu tu dia tengah makan pizza, standing, even just a bout one feet from him ada bench. I don't know why he did not sit. I assume he is a Temple student since he's carrying a backpack and eating in Temple University compound.

I stood about a distance from him. Sumpah, rasa kesian gila tengok. Aku saja duduk di bench not far from him just to confirm what he's going to do next. Some more its not confirmed yet he is a student of Temple. Aku terfikir, kalau betul la dia student Temple, rasa malu gila. Dia yang nampak retard tapi berusaha pergi belajar untuk dapat ilmu tapi aku yang aku rasa tiada masalah untuk belajar bermasalah untuk disiplinkan diri aku. Selalu tidur, suka tangguh kerja. Dari pembacaan aku, orang nampak retard tak semestinya bodoh, they might have difficulties in learning I'm guessing but sooner they will understand whatever they are studying. The difference is only the time. Lepas tu, hujan tiba-tiba lebat. I have to make my move to a shelter since the rain is getting heavy. Aku tak sempat tunggu sampai dia habis makan pizza, tak sempat tengok dia pergi mana lepas tu.

Kalau betul dia student Temple, I'm hoping he'll succeed in his studies and life. And if he is not, I still hope he'll succeed in his life. May God bless him.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Syawal 1432

Assalamualaikum dan selamat sejahtera.

Syukur, on 26th mendarat dengan selamat di JFK New York despite bad weather that are expecting on that day. This will be my second year here in Philadelphia.

Belum terlambat lagi untuk aku ucapkan selamat hari raya rasanya. So, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin. Salah Silap Harap Ampun. Tahun lepas dah raya di Philly, jadi tahun ni Philly once again. Tahun lepas raya tak banyak sangat kelas tapi tahun ni beraya dengan 3classes. Betul, boleh ponteng kalau nak tapi aku nak kenal-kenal lecturer, tak suka senang nak decide nak drop subject mana. Sembahyang raya sekali lagi tak sempat, kelas first on that day is from 8am-920am.

Kepada rakan-rakan yang tak dapat beraya di kampung halaman, jangan sedih-sedih. Parents kita tak nak tengok anak-anak dia sedih. Dia nak tengok anak-anak dia gembira. So, jom dengar lagu raya yang tak sayu.


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